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(no subject) [Feb. 6th, 2010|11:21 am]
david gerberding
Throw me under the bus and see if I survive.
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(no subject) [Nov. 3rd, 2009|03:19 am]
david gerberding
I go through life trying to get people to believe in me. Then when they do I question them on why. I think it's about time something gives... Or gets.
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(no subject) [Oct. 19th, 2009|10:47 am]
david gerberding
While watching Reign Over Me (good movie), I've reached a conclusion. I don't want everything because of the fear of losing it all. If I have nothing right now there's nothing to base it on, to put it into perspective. If you've never had anything, you feel like nothing is something. But if you've had everything and lost it, well then even something is nothing.
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(no subject) [Oct. 14th, 2009|08:45 am]
david gerberding
I've had this infatuation for a while now with the idea of "zooming out." I had this idea quite a while back of what if you zoomed out from your town, from your state, from earth, from the milky way, from this universe far enough? Could this universe just be a tiny microscopic dust particles swirling around in some office building on a late Sunday night before it gets swept up Monday morning? Probably not. I guess.

And lately, since becoming interested in comic books, I've been kinda looking at life, imagining stories through the lens of a video camera, using ideas and methods the movies use; zooming out one of them. And you look at America.


What would today be like if the south had won? The south were just a bunch of stupid racist rednecks who wanted to keep their slaves. They wanted to stay rich. It's easy to belittle them now, a measly 150 years later. But really... The south, the north, everyone here. They were just a bunch of pissed off Europeans. We were too busy fighting with the Native Americans to realize we hate ourselves. But seriously.. What would today be like if we all had Confederacy flags on the back windows of our trucks and cars? And to think it all comes down to one war. The whole idea of our present, of what makes us who we are. It all comes down to one war, one split second, one win. What if it tilted the other way?

Hell. What if the next Hitler dies from cancer? Do we *REALLY* need a cure for cancer that bad? What if the next holocaust succeeds, and in the end everybody who doesn't have blue eyes, blond hair, and believes in THIS, acts THIS way... What if everyone else dies? What if everyone else already died? Screw curing cancer if it means saving the world. Right? Or no?

..And on the seventh day, God created video games.

I dunno. We all look at ourselves, and you look around and at America. We've been around 150 years. Right? Something like that? So what are we? Two old ladies you past by in the bingo parlor put together. Two old people stacked on top of eachother. What does that say about us? But how did we get so far? If we really are the best, the free land, the American dream, all that.. If we can become all of that in 150 years, what's the difference? What's the difference between us and Canada or Mexico? Or between us and Nigeria, Namibia, or Japan? A lot? Or a little?

I googled Victoria Falls the other day and some beautiful photos came up. Pictures of an African savannah peirced by a green blade of foliage, split down the seam, bleeding it's pure blue mist of a heart out. The falls go on forever and the thunder is heard miles away, perfect bliss.. Utopia... And to think... I could die before I travel there. I have an infatuation with Africa. It might be just cause that's the rumored continent of the origin of humanity. I dunno. There's something beautiful about it. The US, what are we? A couple of old people. What is Africa? The starting point of humanity.
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(no subject) [Sep. 22nd, 2009|05:57 am]
david gerberding
'Why does the past repeat itself?

'Because the present will always see allure in the past and the future is forever unimaginable to every present.' --The Great Duurgocci (Just kidding about the name, not the statement.)

Argue against me, I dare you. I guess I'm arguing against myself here.. But as a kid when I watched old slide shows that my family had of the 60's, of the 70's, I felt left out. I felt depressed because I couldn't be a part of that particular past. There was no way for me to step through that slide show projector and step on into the slides of the past. I love oldies music because it reminds me of a time I never had. I love bell bottoms, afros, Elvis and black and white movies. All these colors just add to the insurmountable bullshit we already have. Drop it to black and white and you'll see the true story.

But the truth is the secret. Go read the book, go watch the movie. That's all you gotta understand and learn. The hard part is the learning. Things are easy to read, to see. They are much harder to understand, and even harder to learn. But the secret is something you should partake in. You wanna be a millionaire? Go become one, eh? That simple. You want true love? Go find it. Easy enough. The law of attraction. Blah. I'm just retyping shit you could be reading elsewhere.

Do you believe in aliens? Probably not. Why not? Because you have never seen them? Well then, do you believe in air? You've never seen it. Do you believe in thoughts? Just as invisible.

And yet that's all we have.

Why do you repeat the past? Because you're afraid of the future.

Argue me. I dare you. I'm just trying to help.
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(no subject) [Sep. 9th, 2009|10:14 am]
david gerberding
Our educational system teaches our children (the future leaders of society) how to be the most productive in our society. It teaches us how to count so we can accurately count out your change as we work at Shopko, or how to flip burgers at McDonalds. What our educational system should do instead is teach us what to expect out of life and this world. Not how best to become the slave labor so the rich can get richer.

10% of the world's population owns 90% of it's money. The other 90% of us own that last 10%. And how is this fair? Teach us that in the third grade instead of how many dimes are in a dollar and then we'll be capable enough to lead a revolution in order to do something about it.
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(no subject) [Sep. 2nd, 2009|04:54 pm]
david gerberding
All it is is life is a roller coaster. You just gotta be ready for the highs and the lows, the ups and the downs.

We live in a world where George W Bush's IQ is higher than Andy Warhol's. Go figure.
.peace for a while.
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(no subject) [Jul. 15th, 2009|06:04 am]
david gerberding
...So I was watching The Leap Home from Quantum Leap the other day. Such a great show. I feel old, being in love with a show from the late 80's, early 90's. I was lucky enough to catch the reruns when I was young and smart enough to download them when I got older.

But the Leap Home, I was sad, almost depressed thinking that this is his last chance. He's ruined everything (or not, maybe that's how life went), but now he's back to where life is beautiful. If you don't follow, fuckin' download the two part edpisode. Two episode series. The Leap Home.

He goes back home as a kid and loves it, but you realize that he'll leap out of it, he'll leave it behind (like he did as a kid), and eventually miss it even more. Then I wonder, is it beautiful? Cause he gets another chance at seeing his dad (who has died a long time ago) and the rest of his family (who have since fallen into depressing states)... Then I realize, no. It's not beautiful. Because history repeats itself. And it'll all happen again... And once he's back in the future, again and again, history never rewriting itself, future never unpredicting it's past.. And he's right back where he started...

But it is a beautiful episode. And if anyone never got into Quantum Leap, well you should download those two episodes for the sake of watching them. Peace.
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(no subject) [Jul. 1st, 2009|08:02 am]
david gerberding
The downfall of human existence will eminate entirely from human nature. We are our own worst enemy. Nothing can kill us but ourselves. Nothing can kill you but yourself. To live is to die. And to die is to...



And where does that lead us? Back to the beginning... Of trying to solve this unsolvable mathematical yet hypothetical equation of 'life.' Adding big words can make anybody seem smarter. /hug Now what am I trying to do? Seem smarter? Or make fun of the idea of seeming smarter? I can't tell.. /dumbfounded

"The man who realizes his ignorance has taken the first step toward knowledge." --Max Heindel, who in a befuddling proposition, was an intelligent Christian.

...And to once again suggest everything leads to something... The definition of befuddling includes, '2. to make stupidly drunk.' I have decided to give up on drinking. Wish me luck.
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(no subject) [Jun. 21st, 2009|11:19 am]
david gerberding
I wish I could create an invisibility potion so I could get into the back seat of a chick's car, and listen to what her and her best friend talk about..

Well either that, or seriously sit in on a conversation between two females whose IQ's are abcve 120... Somehow, for whatever odd reason... That seems like a hard thing to do.

Make an invisibility potion, of course.
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